This is a question that people must ask themselves every time they see me. Why do I say this? Because they react to me like I am going to put my 4 girls in the car with them for the ride home. I wish people could hear themselves. “WOW” You have 4 girls! “I know you are done!”
Then I run into a friend of mine who only has a son and would love to have a daughter. When my wife needs me to hold my youngest, who is now 13 months, I see his arm twitch so I just hand her over to him. He doesn’t realize it but he immediately walks away from us. He goes and finds a window to look out of and I am not sure what is going through his mind at that point. Maybe something like how wonderful it must be to have a daughter. He does not hide his feelings for little girls. He squeezes my youngest daughter and she will just sit with him all day and look at him. I am soo glad she is not the screamer so he can get his quality time.
The funny thing is when I go to his sons baseball games and watch him coach it really makes we want to have a son. I never want to miss out on anything that God has in my plan but remember…If I have 4 girls….do I keep going? We sit and talk about the challenges of having children and reaching boys vs. girls and it is funny hearing about all the challenges I have not encountered as a parent, but trust me there are enough challenges. Trust me!
And you know what, when I was leaving the function yesterday I thought about my friend who took my daughter to the window and I could see his son in the grass playing football(one of two sports I played in college) with his baseball uniform on(because they had just left a playoff game…something I have never been able to experience with a son)
Actually, his son was gone because they left an hour before we did, but I could still see him. Only the name on the back of his shirt said “Offdachain” and I REALLY LIKED THAT!! See what he doesn’t understand is the only reason I am not at the window holding his son in my arms is because he is my size and he is only six years old.
So at the end of the day I will take my car full of queens home and not question why or even if I will ever experience anything other than girls. The funny thing is I changed the last line I just typed from experience anything different, because each one of my girls is different and I really thought about not having a fourth child and when I look at this little girl. I mean those of you who know this child……
I can not imagine not having her and I think we do a better job each time so I have decided not to put the man made roadblocks up because there are others who would love to have the blessings of little feet in their lives.
I will enjoy the art of PRACTICING (in my Allen Iverson voice)… and take what I am blessed with and continue to honor my family and community on the narrow path I have chosen. A marriage path of honoring my family and choosing to surround myself with men who want to be accountable to RIGHT actions.
So I will press on and YES!
I keep going!